Confession of Affection
I had a suit of armor on. I was standing in a large canyon, dry as a desert. Around me were thousands of black and gray keyblades buried into the ground, except designated paths, straight and clear. I could see Terra charging after a bald old man, ready to strike him. But the old man lifted his hand and a great patch of earth was pulled up, hitting Terra hard. When Terra recovered, another piece of Earth went higher above him where the old man stood. Terra would not give up and kept going. A boy in a black and red bodysuit and helmet covering his face, pulled the keyblades out of the ground and began riding them towards Ventus, Aqua, and I. Ventus couldn’t duck in time and was tossed aside. The keyblades hit Terra and fell upon Aqua like lava from a volcano. Aqua was knocked into a crater, tearing off a third of her helmet. Ventus and I rushed to her.
“Aqua!” cried Ventus.
Aqua struggled up, then lashed out her keyblade and created a force field surrounding Terra (who had keyblades raining down on him like hail). Aqua sat up and Ventus began to run trying to help Terra.
“Ventus! Wait! That’s foolish!” I shouted as I rushed to follow him.
Terra fell to the ground and the old man summoned his keyblade ready to fight him. Ventus came up behind him was swung his keyblade. But suddenly, the old man vanished. Then, he reappeared and grabbed Ventus by the head! I rushed behind Terra.
“Ven!” they cried in terror.
“Let him go you freak!”
Ventus struggled to break lose. The old man smirked, and gripped Ventus’ head tighter, causing his helmet to crack.
“STOP!” I screamed, “Light!”
I lashed an orb at the old man but did nothing. I was tossed off the mountain.
“Keira!” I heard Aqua.
Terra tried as well, but had keyblades on him again as the boy in the mask appeared. Keira and Aqua watched in horror as the old man used a powerful darkness and froze Ventus’s whole body!
I suddenly threw myself up in the bed. I breathed in and out, in an out, in a rapid motion. I heard a gentle knock on my door.
“Yes, come in!” I panted.
The door creaked open. It was Roxas.
“Xzylair? You okay? Did I wake you?” He asked, rather timidly.
I sighed, rubbing my eyes.
“No, no, it’s fine!” I replied, “What’s up?”
“Well, Saïx says we get a day off today” Roxas informed.
“‘A day off’? What’s that?” I asked, curiously.
“I don’t know. Axel says it’s a day where we can do whatever we want!”
“Really?” I asked, “What’s Axel and Xion doing?”
“Xion went off somewhere and Axel’s sleeping. You wanna…go with me to Twilight Town?”
I was surprised. I hopped off the bed.
“You…want me to go with you?” I asked.
“Well, yeah” Roxas replied, “I don’t wanna be by myself!”
I ran up to him and grinned.
Roxas and I arrived in Twilight Town. As we were walking, we heard some kids playing out in the street. It was the three kids we see often, playing with some kind of bat. Once particular boy with a sports band wrapped around his head, looked up and saw us.
“Hey, I remember you!” he exclaimed, gesturing to Roxas, “How’s it going?”
“Hi, Pence” said Roxas.
I said nothing.
“On your own today?” Pence asked, “Oh! Who’s your friend?”
“Huh? Oh!” Roxas gestured to me, “This is Xzylair.”
I nodded. Pence smiled.
“Nice to meet you Xzylair!”
Then, a girl walked up to us. She had brown hair, green eyes, and floral orange shirt.
“Friends of yours, Pence?” she asked.
“Yeah, I met him a while back” Pence replied.
“Oh. Well, it’s nice to meet you. I’m Olette” said the girl.
“Nice to…meet you, too” said Roxas, “What are you all doing?”
“Watching Hayner here practice his grandstander act” said Pence.
“Grandstander?” I asked.
“Yeah, you hit a ball with a bad and try to keep it from touching the ground. Hayner’s one of the best in town.”
The boy behind Olette said, rudely, “You new around here? How come you’re bothering us?”
I assumed the boy was Hayner. He had slick blonde hair, brown eyes, and an army green vest and black shirt.
“Watch it hot stuff” I warned, cooly.
“We were just passing by” Roxas informed.
“Uh-huh. Well, keep passing by then. We’re busy here.”
“Sheesh Hayner, don’t be rude! There’s no need to be mean!” said Olette.
“Sorry about that. I’m sure he didn’t mean to offend you,” said Pence, “He’s just-”
Hayner interrupted. “Hey. You guys try it. Let’s see your juggling act.”
“What will that prove?”
“It’s not gonna kill them.”
Roxas looked at me, looking for help. I shrugged.
“Sure! Why not?”
Hayner handed us the bat and each of us took turns playing. We played for practically hours. It was a bit hard to pick up at first, but soon, Roxas and I were pros. The kids complimented us on how good we were. It was especially satisfying to kick Hayner’s butt, who was a very confident and cocky young man. After a long day, we finally excused ourselves. It was fun. And fun usually isn’t a word I’d use. Missions were work, they were tolerable, but today made my realize how much more we could do, how much more we could be. Playing that day made me wish I could do something else everyday besides collecting hearts. I wonder what Roxas and I would be like if we weren’t in the Organization…
We found a nice spot overlooking the ocean fenced by a low brick wall. We sat there for a little while. The sun was beginning to set, nearly the time we would go to the clocktower for ice cream.
“Roxas…?” I asked.
“Hmm?” said Roxas.
“These…feelings I’ve been having. I don’t believe they’re fake” I stated.
“Huh? What’re you talking about?”
I shifted my weight, pulling my hair from behind my face.
“The reason I was acting so…aggressive, is because I…I’ve been having strong feelings…in terms of you.”
Roxas was surprised, but he didn’t act all flustered and stammered like I expected. He seemed genuinely confused.
I looked back to the sky.
“I feel like…You and I have a connection. A strong connection. A link from when we were humans.”
I put a hand on my chest, and clenched my fist.
“I know Saïx said we don’t have hearts, and don’t have feelings. But what if we can? What if, we had a bond when we were alive, so strong, that it gave us Nobodies emotions?”
I had to let it out. I suddenly took Roxas’ hands.
“When I first came to the Organization, I felt like what I was supposed to be: A Nobody. But…going on missions with you, you allowing me to hang out with your best friends, it’s given me so much. I felt…alive…”
I looked up at him, checking his expression. Once again, I didn’t appear flustered, or disturbed at my sudden confession. It appeared he was simply listening, and listening intently.
“And I don’t want to be a burden. I want to help you. I know your friends are important to you, and I don’t want to take them away from you. Axel and Xion…I…want them to be my friends too…If you’ll let me.”
I looked down, shame washing over me. Then, I said firmly.
“If not, then things can go back to the way they were. Or…if you’re angry with me, if I’m beyond forgiveness, then…then I won’t be your friend anymore…”
Roxas tightened his grip on my hands. I looked up.
“I’ve felt the connection too,” he finally said, “Everytime I look at you, I feel…Hope, hope that, everything will always be alright. Of course, all my friends make me feel that way, but you…Something feels different about you, like, you’re someone I need to protect. As if…” His expression saddened, “As if I’ve failed to do it before.”
He held my hands up. My cheeks reddened a little, but my chest fluttered.
“Right now, I hereby promise,” he announced, “That we will be together, no matter what. I will always protect you, no matter who stands in our way. I won’t make the same mistake again-”
Suddenly, saw Ventus again, looking at me with the same expression.
“-Kiera…” he said, tenderly, with a warm smile on his face.
Then, as quick as he came, he vanished, and there again sat Roxas.
I smiled. I felt a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. I felt the wind blow gently through my hair, pulling all strands away from my face. I threw my arms around him, my head against his chest. Roxas returned my affections, wrapping his arms around me, and resting his head on mine. I closed my eyes, taking in the sounds and smells around me. I wanted to remember this moment, for the rest of my life.
Just then, I thought of something.
“I’ll be right back!” I suddenly exclaimed.
I lept up from my seat. I summoned a dark portal and ran through it. I literally ran to a certain special place of mine to grab something, and returned back to Twilight Town. I brought back with me, a bright yellow, star-shaped fruit, with tufts of leaves on every corner.
“Where’d you get those?” Roxas asked.
I put a finger to my mouth, mischievously.
“Can’t tell” I said.
“Okay, I will say this:” I caved, “It comes from a very special place. It’s called a poupou fruit,” Xzylair explained, “Legend has it, that if two people share one, their destinies will become intertwined-“
I remember Riku’s words echo in my head.
A scene played in my head, one of Kiera’s memories. I saw all of her friends on the beach, including Riku.
“Okay, how about a little wager?” Riku said.
“Alright! If I win…, er, I’m captain of the raft, and if you win-” said Sora.
“-I get to share a paopu with Kairi” Riku finished.
I tried to hold back a giggle.
“Deal? Whoever wins gets to share a paopu with Kairi” said Riku, “you remember, right? If two people share one, their destinies become intertwined. They’ll remain a part of each other’s lives no matter what. Come on! I know you want to try it.”
“Wha-? Wait, What!?” Sora stammered, so caught off guard by Riku’s sudden commitment wager.
However, he didn’t even have a chance to think when Kairi cried, “Go!”
The two raced off into the distance. Kairi and I giggled.
“-They’ll be a part of each other’s lives, no matter what” I finished.
I looked up at Roxas, deep into his eyes.
“Do you…Do you want to share one?” I asked.
Roxas stared at the poupou fruit for a long time. Then, he looked up at me and grinned.
My heart soared.
“You’re acting so strange, Xzylair! I mean, this is so unlike you!”
I giggled and looked at the sunset.
“Well maybe…Maybe you just haven’t seen my real self until now…”